She said there was a pool.

In the hope of gaining a deeper and more scientific understanding of my innermost being, I took a quiz on Facebook. The quiz showed you a word, and a bunch of colors, and based on the color you chose to represent each word it calculated how idealistically or realistically you saw the world. My results were shockingly accurate. According to what I am sure is a peer reviewed analysis of the data, my innermost being is 90% idealist, and 10% realist. In other words: "The world in your eyes is a magical place filled with goodness, hope, and beauty."

And those eyes are the same eyes that saw this ad on a work exchange website, when we were looking for a way to stay cheaply on the East coast, until it was time for all that famous fall foliage to appear:

"This is a lovely country house, with huge private guest quarters, on 3.5 acres, with a pool, gazebo, gardens, 350 acre lake, kayaks + more. You'll have your own large, beautifully furnished private suite 25' x 40' with full bathroom, private entrance that opens to a private deck, gazebo, gardens, etc. Looking for one or two people to help with gardening, outdoor yardwork, and some help in house with small projects. Hours will be reasonable - about 5-6 hours day, leaving plenty of time to enjoy biking, hiking, exploring town, local concerts, etc. I only have print photos - will take digital + upload photos of beautiful property when I return. Photos WILL NOT DISAPPOINT!"

The lack of photos didn't bother me. Soon I was envisioning work days filled with light pruning in the lush gardens of a country estate. There might be bulb planting. Perhaps a little raking. In the late afternoon there would be a dip in the pool, to wash off the day's genteel perspiration, followed by a glass of wine in the gazebo, as the sun went down on an idyllic late summer day. After work, or on our days off, we would float in kayaks on the lake, and take in the beauty of the New England countryside. We would shake our heads in disbelief at our good fortune.

We decided to apply. And were almost immediately accepted.

Day 1

We tried to act nonchalant when S. was showing us around that first day. She took us up to her top deck, and started telling us what she hoped we could accomplish while we were there. She was planning to sell her house, and there were things she wanted done before she put it on the market. Number one on her list was to clean her three thousand square foot wooden deck. Her multi-level, bigger than any house I ever lived in deck, with three flights of stairs, and built-in benches and tables and planters. A deck that was covered in dirt and mold. A deck that hadn't been cleaned in at least ten years. We nodded politely. I asked if there was a power washer we could use. She said no. She had been googling madly, and consulting with the experts at Lowes. There would be no power washing. She had been convinced it would destroy the wood. She showed us lots of big plastic containers filled with chemicals. She showed us two scrub brushes on long handles. We nodded politely. As we were standing up there on the deck we saw the pool down below. It was on the lowest level, with a sun-bleached cover strapped on top. Through the mesh edges of the cover we glimpsed the water. It looked murky, almost black. We asked about it. She shrugged and said, "Oh, I haven't opened that in at least ten years."

Then she took us downstairs to show us our private deck.

And our private suite.

Which really wasn't too bad.

Once we got used to the smell.

Later that night S. cooked fresh mussels for us, and pasta, and served it with salad and bread. She filled our wine glasses from her own bottle. She talked about her life and her travels, her estranged drug-addicted daughter, and her talented far-away son. She told us she was the owner, proprietor, and sole employee of a boutique marketing firm in NYC. And suddenly everything made just a little bit more sense.

Day 2

We get up prepared to start scrubbing the three thousand square foot multi-level deck. S. says, "Oh, by the way, the outside faucets aren't working, you can carry buckets of water from the kitchen sink to rinse everything off." We do not nod politely. Gary spends the morning fishing hoses out from under the house, and trying to get the faucets to produce water. Which they do by midday. Except we can only use one, because when you turn the other one on water gushes into the wall inside the closet in our basement apartment. Which explains the mold. And at least part of the smell. S. seems upset that we don't volunteer to tear open the wall and fix her plumbing.

The day is half gone by the time we start working on the front deck. S. wants us to use the cheap chemical first. It isn't working very well on the thick layer of mold and grime. So we get down on our hands and knees and start scrubbing. There is no nozzle for the hose. S. suggests we use our thumb. In between spraying and scrubbing we walk around to the side of the house and turn off the water, so her well won't run dry. S. is working in the yard nearby watching our every move. She criticizes us for scrubbing too hard, and taking some of the ancient stain off as we go. Gary and I look at each other and mouth silently, "This is insane."

Later that night we hear creatures in the drop ceiling above our basement bed. The creatures sound larger than mice. They seem to be having a party. I suggest packing up and sneaking out in the middle of the night. Gary says no.

  Day 3

Gary has made a list of things we need to buy to make our life easier. Like a nozzle for the hose. He goes to the store before S. is up. I go outside and try to make myself useful. I'm weeding under an open window when I hear stomping and swearing inside. I hear the words, "F**K! What did they do?!" There is no other they than us, and I can't imagine what we have done, other than leaving our scrambled egg pan soaking in the sink. I start to think that in addition to everything else our hostess may be dealing with some anger management issues. I briefly wonder if she has a gun.

We spend the day scrubbing the deck. We use the new stronger chemical which works better. We don't get down on our hands and knees. S. criticizes us for using too much chemical, because she doesn't want to have to buy more. She doesn't seem to notice the nozzle that has magically appeared on the end of the hose. The nozzle she will use every day from now on to water her plants. The nozzle she will not offer to pay for.

During the day we come across a large pile of trash and broken furniture that looks as if it has been thrown over the side of the top deck. S. confirms that everything in the pile has been thrown over the side of the top deck. We suggest that if she wants to sell her house it might be a good idea to get rid of this pile. S. says no. Adamantly. She says, "That's the next owner's responsibility."

Later that night S. cooks us salmon and asparagus, and pours us wine from her own bottle. We go downstairs, and listen to the party above our heads. Gary bangs on the drop ceiling panels and we hear years of dried up poop bouncing up and down. We hear the creatures that are bigger than mice growl. I suggest packing up and sneaking out in the middle of the night. Gary says no.

Day 4

It's raining after breakfast, so I get out the brand new sewing machine from Walmart that S. bought. The one she's planning to return after I'm done using it. I sew curtain rod casings and hems for all of the drapes in her living and dining rooms. I tear apart, and sew back together, three sets of valances, matching the pattern on the fabric. S. doesn't know how to sew, but she offers suggestions. She criticizes me for being a perfectionist when I start measuring the hems with a ruler.

Gary scrubs the deck.

After dinner I suggest packing up and sneaking out in the middle of the night. Gary says we can't sneak out, that if we decide to go we will have to tell S.

Day 5 & 6

S. decides to try her hand at scrubbing. She gets down on her hands and knees. When she stands up there is lots of mold left. And bare patches of wood. She laughs and says, "Your section clearly looks better." Then she moves to the "garden," and I follow. She shows me where to weed. She watches me work and tells me I'm doing it wrong. I pull out giant vines with thorns on them. I dig out huge ornamental grasses to transplant. I cut back overgrown rose bushes and get stuck in the thorns.

I help Gary take off the ancient rotting pool cover so he can clean the wood that's underneath. When the cover comes off we see a strange object floating in the water. It's about the size of a basketball. It's hard to tell what it is. It might be furry. As Gary scrubs the deck it seems to follow him around.

Day 7 & 8

We take two days off and go to Great Barrington, where we walk around and go into little shops. We buy comfort food. Like fudge. And potato chips. And wine. On the way home we take our wet and smelly laundry to a laundromat, because the washer and dryer at the country estate are not working. The next day we climb Monument Mountain,

 and drive to Stockbridge, the place James Taylor sings about. We eat lunch with all the NYC people in their Berkshire costumes. We look for, but cannot find, the first official monument in the U.S. to an alien abduction.

Day 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14

I work in the garden and try to reclaim it from the forest. I pull vines and dig out thorny bushes. I cut dead branches, and haul everything into a giant pile on the edge of the trees. S. tells me I'm weeding wrong, I'm putting things in the garbage can wrong, I'm making my lunch salad wrong, I'm doing everything wrong. But at the end of the day she also says, "You're like a human backhoe." And my lacerated ego flickers faintly to life.  

Before

After

I wash windows and sliders, and do small sewing projects. Then S. decides she wants to build a rock wall, for a planting bed in the front of her house. She recruits me to haul the rocks. I climb the hill into the forest with a five gallon plastic bucket and fill it with stones. I carry the biggest ones I can lift in one hand, and the bucket filled with smaller ones in the other. I roll the heaviest ones down the hill. My perspiration is not genteel.

Gary scrubs the deck.

At the end of the day we do not go out exploring. We do not try to find the paddles for the kayaks that are shoved in the basement by the broken washer, and figure out how to haul them in our car down to the lake that seems so far away.  

The lake we never go kayaking in.

We do not sit in the gazebo and drink wine with the spiders and the mice. What we do is peel off our filthy soaking clothes and drape them around the room, to see if they will dry by the next day. We wash away our sweat, and count the days.

S. cooks us chicken fajitas, and hamburgers, and pesto pasta salad. She grills steak, and corn on the cob, and zucchini. She fills the frig with bagels and eggs and salad stuff. She buys big bottles of wine. Some nights she sits with us, and tells us about hanging out with John and Sean Lennon in NYC, back in the day, back when she was a "looker." She and Gary share music with each other on their phones and computers. She tells us her children aren't interested in this house, or anything in it, including the family heirlooms. She tells us the only other relative she has is her sister. She tells us if we ever settle down we can take whatever we want.

Later on a mouse runs between our feet as we are sitting in the basement. When we tell S. she shrieks, and when we go downstairs for the night she seals up the crack in the bottom of the basement door, with us and the mouse inside. We both say half-heartedly, "We could still leave." But we don't.

Day 15 & 16

Two days off. We drive to the Walkway Over the Hudson, and meet some of Gary's friends from college that he hasn't seen in years. We rest and read and run errands. The faint smell of death appears in the basement. Perhaps one of the creatures that is bigger than a mouse has died in our ceiling. When I look at my fingers they are swollen like little sausages, and when I examine my heart I'm surprised by what I see.

Day 17 & 18

Gary scrubs the deck.

S. tells him to dilute the chemicals and do it "half-assed," and "only 75%." Then she tells him to use the chemicals full strength and try to get every bit of mold off. She tells him not to scrub so hard, so there won't be bare wood. Then she tells him the experts at Lowes said bare wood is better than mold, so go ahead and scrub hard. Gary starts wearing his earbuds all day. And swearing more than usual.

S. and I start to work on the pile of junk on the side of the house. She says we have shamed her into doing it, and that she can't believe she thought she didn't have to deal with it. We move everything closer to the driveway, where it will be easier to haul away.

S. cooks us pork and black beans, with onions and rice. She says she wishes she could cook as well as we work. We have her taking Advil for her aches and pains, and drinking wine with her dinner. She says we have saved her life.

Day 19

S. is up unusually early, bustling around the kitchen making an apple tart. She says, "Happy birthday" when I come in for breakfast.

S. and I go out and work on the junk pile until it's done. Then we start raking leaves, and hauling them into the forest. S. says I'm putting the leaves into the garbage can wrong. Then we move to the top of the driveway, where I saw down a gigantic overgrown vine. S. says, "You make everything look so easy." She says, "You give me hope."

We come back to the house, and S. is trying to figure out what to do with me next. While she's thinking I decide to see if I can remove the mysterious floating object from the pool. I find a net, and start to fish it out. Pinkish yellowish grayish globules of what is surely disintegrated groundhog rise to the surface, and then sink. I heave the fur, which is the only thing left intact, over the deck and off into the woods. The smell is blooming all around me. Gary hears me scream, but I don't remember that part.

Gary scrubs the deck.

S. says, "This is probably one of your more intense work exchange experiences," and tells us to take the rest of the day off. We drive into town for sashimi and tempura, and I hardly notice that I have turned 56.

Day 20 & 21

Gary does not scrub the deck, because the deck is scrubbed. All three thousand multi-level square feet of it. The trumpets do not sound. Instead S. hurries him on to the last two projects. One he does without the proper tools, and the other he does after he goes out one last time to buy one last tool. But then he puts his tools away, and I stop cleaning the muck from the gazebo, and we are officially done.

We awkwardly hug S. goodbye, and she presses a $100 bill into my hand. She says she wishes we would move in. She says she'll feed us and make our workload lighter and we can stay forever. She invites us to visit her in NYC anytime. She says we can stay in her extra bedroom. I am thinking we will need to see some pictures first.

And then we leave. But before we left, we stayed. Why did we stay? Was it because of all that food S. bought and all those meals she prepared? Was it because her daughter is sick and broken, which broke the mother too, and her son is far away, and once you count her sister there is no more family to count? Or was it because in the magical world of goodness, hope, and beauty that lives inside my head, that's just what people do. Even when those people are sweaty and crabby, and their fingers are swollen like little sausages, and all they can think about is sneaking away in the middle of the night. We stay. We just stay. And help each other anyway.